After a 5 minute session of scraping the last bit of chole chaawal prepared by yours truely;p... I manage to gather the courage to romance the keys on my decaying lappy ( well not that old... considering its survived me;p.......
Ahh what a view... that's the thought first thing and the last thing on my mind ever since i shifted into my new room this month... being on the 19th floor it captures the warm and diverse city of Melbourne and the nearby suburbs... unlike the perfection of Scottsdale .. its the flaws in Melbourne that make it the most liveable city... whether its graffiti or the silence of crowded trains....the drugged fridays or the lively sporty saturdays... everything.. its become my home now... :)
Here i realised that learning and re-learning is a never ending process... the relations that you choose will last forever ... and friendship is truly what provides that power and courage to survive the freak weather around.. oun intended;p...
But most importantly Its provided me the hope and the support to discover and pursue a passion which a year ago I could never have thought would become the 'lakshya' of my life....the more i research.. the more contended my heart is that this is what i would want to do till me last breath .... thus spoke a tightly packed and shelved feeling called passion...
But is passion enough?... well it works for me... gives me hope, strength, the light for shinning and surviving the toughest days... and yes i have days when the only energy i have is to say gudnight and crash;p... its taught me.. that the mind is at peace when there are no thoughts harassing it... and the ability to be blank works for developing a focus and enjoy the journey towards ones aim... its passion that makes me go every day at work knowing Im earning enough to go to safeway and pick groceries and stil manage to argue with sam on why we should shop at safeway and not coles.. though she's always right and manages to ignore my irrational requests;p...anyways im drfting away from the focus.. but thats what passion is.. finding life's treasures in every moment... every person..every feeling...its my yin yang...being a creative person ( oh well atleast attempting for that title... heeheee... and self-promotion is the best promotion ;p.) i can paint, write and create things only if i am in the mood... and physically and emotionally connect to it.. whether its capturing emotions in abtracts, poetic versions of surviving a heart break and discovering unconditional love.. or even looking at my son's (pluto.. i dont call him my pet .. he's my son:))... when i reached home after a gap of 10 months... ( i just counted the months on finger tips.. letting out my biggest weakness ... maths;p)... the longing and the happiness in his pawy hugs and customised 'patent pending' barks:).. made me special...that how one takes a lot of thinsg for granted... my lil one crystal's.. ( my mini daschund) crazy circling around the room , licks and folowing me every where demeanor shows that yes.. unconditional love truely exists... its your belief and passion that keep it alive...
Recently a very close friend.. aka my soul sister... lost a very special someone in her life... at a very young age... her words could not express her feeling for her feline friend or better child... but her tears... and ability to come to terms with the loss is what created that passion to accept that he is now in a happier place:)... and will always be loved....
Passion is something which cannot be written or expressed... its so special and unique that it shapes according to a person, a creature or any surviving organism... Follow it... romance it.. argue with it.. live it... and you will surely discover the meaning of life... and every breath:)..
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